and all i can taste is this moment
and all i can breathe is your life
cause sooner or later it's over
i just don't want to miss you tonight



have fun back in melly yeamerr (: i <3 you tons. and i'll see u when nov comes. dont lose your insanity yea? go rock yr 12 and all those comm stuff ure going do. xoxoxo!

today i was SO embarrassed in the canteen, never do you any good to leak out such confidential matters. and i hope the maptest went well :D natpoh wouldnt stop cursing at me ): theres this giganormous guy in class that hasnt been turning up for 3 consecutive days and J is very upset dont worry! i'll knock some sense into him for you.

i just saw more unglamourous pictures, sheesh they're really turnoffs but yet surprisingly they make me smile. ohdear, its gonna make parting hard. and phyllis wrote me my love letter and its so, y'know. it just sucks knowing when u gain some, u lose some. and it sucks even more when the loss feels so major.

lionellewislionellewislionellewis! :D do well tmrr!

what we talked about and hoped what will not happen eventually did. i guess theres no escapism in real life. bugger.

N, 9:39 PM



The devil comes and I try to stall and
Soon my subconscious and conscious might start to brawl
And I put up my walls
And they begin to fall

school stinked and my sorethroat is worse. but all thanks to the lousy throat that i've gotten exemption from my scary maptest. i love you, MCs.

i skipped chinese and englishlec and we spent those times talking and i feel semi guilty and the freak (<3semomusic)teacher was so fierce today. he practially wanted to fight nicholas ): geee if u speak like !@(#&! in class, i dont think nicholas was anybit out of line.

meanwhile, i reallyy think bella's pretty! shit i must stop exclaiming that, people will start questioning my gender preferences. but being absolutely stupid aside, she IS pretty!

met jea, alicia, yeamer and iain for dinner. was cool albeit i have to leave early to get my (welldeserved)mc :D andand i've gotten sherbets for the dumbpartner in class, despite iain being annoying and nagging at me. please be thankful phyllisong! :D

x the angel from my nightmare says:
sexayeeee

semllyM- i <3>
HAHAHHA LIKE ME

semllyM- i <3>
his ass is perkier than mine i think

semllyM- i <3>
he more sexy

now we know what kinda friends she hangs out with. okay gonna get the much needed sleep. my headaches are flourishing and its gonna be a long and tiring day tmr. muahaha



N, 11:15 PM



I love the way that you find me
Whenever I've lost my way
You're just in time

haapppy nightout. now i can finally put faces to names semlly talks about. and the pizzastingrayprawmee are giving me a nasty sorethroat ): she and her stalk-the-boyfriend actions!
phyllis is trying to make it sound as though my brownie with pinkheart icing is a bad idea but deep down in her heart i know she secretly thinks its feasible (:

heart !!

mondaymonday i'll seee yeamer/iywad! i forgot that d stood for. its supposed to be im yeamer with a d... i think its disorder. haah.

p.s i finallly finally finally understood the (painful)art of making strawhearts. ok u can mock at me. :D


N, 1:45 AM



I’m not sayin nothin you don’t already know
You know you’re too delicious, more than I can handle
Lyin around late at night, so luscious that I ache
Baby why’d you fall asleep, I’m still awake

band pract sucked. andd there was no toiletpaper in any toilets and it was freaking raining, and band pract sucked.

i'm turning down shopping to stay home and study for my freaking maptest on tuesday, wth! and i have zuo wen and math(omg, and i thought i've met the worst when i met ms p. so apparently i havent.) tmr i can sleep in while jessie has dance in school :D and idk what present to get for my grandfather. haha.

i think i will screw up o's major and i cant bear to leave natpoh phyllis junaidah jessie nadirah neeta/nita(haha) shortie and that freak whos sleeps in econs but amazed all of us when he got called to speak up. ohoh and of course, theres you. ): OH i must go remind jessie about our deal.

what do you do when u realise all(albeit little) luck runs out?

N, 10:27 PM



Sometimes the hardest thing to do is nothing at all.

how come every season finale of l.b is always so freaking sad ): u Never Fail to cry. poor tessa now i cant wait for season 4. maybe by then jessica will take cameron back. she'll know she was such a dweeb.

schools getting fucking stressful. i have tests and chinese compo and research and to top it off tmr i have to go see the band teacher. wassup with those dumb policies? isnt my not going pretty self explanatory enough? do u wanna lecture me and then still not see me in practices? if that pleases you, then fine.

i went back to tp interchange in the afternn today. havent done that for a long time and it felt good. then the ij stuff just came coming back. its seriously not very helpful to whisk ur kids off to a girls sch for 10 years straight.

2.5 hours break tmr i'll be good and study my maps ): last friday was good, please let tmr be good. omg a week passed by just like that. a few more weeks to no more seeing you.

phyllis has been skipping one too many lessons! and when she skips she reaps! this is unfair. i wanna skip chinese too): i cant believe she skipped pe to go shit. and i fell into such deep slumber during chinese i didnt realise she was drawing on me -.- but now she has sexayyee thighs so we're quits. xo you suckkkaa!

N, 9:32 PM



And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

less angsty but nonetheless still very far from being happy. although being with the semlly one helped a tremendous lot. school is getting so weary. and tmr i end at 5. wth and add pe to that, right smack on the first period ): i cant freaking do inclined okay just spare me the misery and let me run or whatever.

feb14 wont just be valentine's this year. its ur special 18th, i find myself thinking about the time and then adding 3. not very helpful. i want to hear from u soon ):

my chinese teacher chided me today ): i cant help it ur lessons bore me to death okay! im so dropping to h1. gooodbye cheenafreak sengchuan! muaha.

it's been a longgg week coming.

N, 9:18 PM



When everything's against me
The answers are all wrong
I'm hoping that I'll find out
It was worth it all along


she gets so fucking annoying sometimes i want to dig a hole and cry in it and never come out. no shes so bloody hormonally challenged she needs me around. cleaning and fucking vacuuming arent just what the stupid house needs. and im sorry if i dont wash ur cups or clear my desk like what the good kids do. maybe, just maybe u owe us more than u think u do.

today was a little bit more than unexpected and i hate math. only p32 understands how charmed our lives are to be odd numbers in the register. today i had pe and it stank initially, but running 1.6 after a good 3 months felt surprisingly good. yay for the dad's home.

sucks when u know ure not first priority anymore. omg emo times, i wanna swear. =X

tough being me, really. silver lining appear soon ):

N, 10:57 PM



Hustle, bustle and so much muscle
Cells about to separate
And I find it hard to concentrate

town was horrible(for me, mel had a blast!) and my nose is still very fcuked up. i cant stop yawning and then my eyes wont stop tearing but i dont want to go to bed.

today j got her heart crushed (so bloody melodramatic but u should have seen the look on her face, very crestfallen, very sad) and i got mine semi crushed. no more gushing no more squealing no more hogging the best seat in town. i will shove my 10poundheavy ass to a desolated place and allow sengchuan that freak to continue saying ijtp girls suck and ill reply u think chungcheng damn good is it.

ok long day tmr, i hope u wont appear during breaks. its quite the terror, come to think of it now, and its getting a tad too tiresome. i freaking have pe at freaking 4pm wth. and i hope the gp teacher doesnt turn up tmr. bet she will. shit. chinese's really really difficult omg but im glad for phyllis! and shuyi that dweeb.

N, 11:11 PM



It's all good you know
I still love you so
And you don't have to do this on your own.

i hope those cramps wont come bugging me tmr in school, but then again, what can possibly kill the joy of being able to see ___ ? i see i've made a somewhat valid point.
paraphrasing those stupid poems can be so tedious! and i've only got 7 lines. HAHA

okay 5 more days of being a very happy me, and i havent shopped for a really long time, may tmr be good. laterrr

N, 11:22 PM



wanted to load pictures but stupid smellyM's cam had such huge resolutions(10 megapix!!) -.- so.

i miss caveman!

hi world!:D i love noelle! ok laterr

N, 6:31 PM



a champagne supernova in the sky;

vj tmr! bridge and more games. have fun dragonboating yall! :D mel loves her photoshop now!



and i'll see you tues. (:

N, 11:51 PM



You stay a little while
And touch me with your smile
And what can I say to make you mine
To reach out for you in time

yay u and ur lunches; me and my friendster moves :D

chinese was hell difficult! half the time we were raising our eyebrows at those lame jokes they crack -.- then it was gp: alright? okay alright. -.-! it was so hilarious when the boys(okay one cute one in particular) kept mimicking and omg funny.com then came chem! we knew no shit about empirical formula and relative atomic mass but semllyM is very proud she now knows whats the formula for hydrocarbon. THEN the fugging rain killed all joy ):

tuesday! josceline foo! u better show up! (:

N, 11:32 PM



You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move

today is very chilly and im freezing. today also, u didnt smile. today semllyM crashed and we had fun looking at d.kinns. today jessie didnt come @#($&. today we had englit, and he sucks balls. today, i think you got cuter (asperusual). lets not bother about what bad comments the semlly one has. :D

imma have some pre-supper in abit, and also at the same time ponder and devise ways to make sure my smile meets yours tmr. tmr there's chinese! how exciting ;) semlly will fall asleep. tmr someone also has practice, yay. i feel like a stalker, haha wth who cares!



N, 8:43 PM



It's all up in the air and we stand still to see what comes back down
I don't know where it is, I don't know when, but I want you around
When it falls in place with you and I, we go from if to when
Your side and mine are both behind it's indication

i finally met semllyM! but the sickening part was lazybones got the better of me and i was past caring how i looked in town. then i saw jade! :D and i bumped into jz on the train on monday! old times, good times.

lessons start tmr and i'll prolly be nodding off, timetable sucks balls. and jessie's not coming tmr! ): monday, i'll have revenge!

ohoh i have pictures with the semlly one i hope someone's efficient enough, and i miss og class ): and my blog fricking looks hideous, and and yj breeds cats. ): theres so many sad faces i think ive succeeded in what i tried to do.

look, nod, smile and take my breath away. yay.

N, 9:57 PM



But it's so hard to risk another these days
These days
And if I seem to be afraid
To live the life that I have made in song
Well it's just that I've been losing for so long

i think i brought the pimplecurse upon myself. i love keropoks. dammit.

miniobs tmr! then semllyM. <3

N, 10:35 PM



-

thai tmr yay.

please DONT catch stranger than fiction, it IS very strange a movie.

school beckons tmr! another long day ahead hello eyebags.

N, 10:23 PM


-

havent been to usual cine and fareast place in forever(save for the amazingrace on friday, i dont even want to start typing about), so tmr i'll relive holiday times.

semllyM's back but i havent got ard to meeting her yet and its so not safe to meet after school because the damn internal clock's not used to a 6 to 6 routine yet so i'll just crank up. ohwells, i do it because i know she's cool with it so. :D

im still relunctant to eat during breaks and recesses, and i think its a very good thing for me to stop dropping by bebo. yay.

im missing so many people its hard to believe. but mainly just moss and almond;



Good(albeit ugly) times. <3

N, 1:06 AM



I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
where I would impress you,
with every single word I said.
Would come out insightful or brave or smooth or charming
and you'd want to call me.

now i'm starting to see the light. (: TOAD'S BACKK!!!! yay tmr after my ratrace, i'll seeee u my beloved! :D

school's getting better but recess still stinks because i always feel queasy. so now i have breakfast at 6pm. ):

modmodmod!

N, 12:00 AM



I <3<3<3 IJ. and i miss you like !@P(#)!*&@# melissatioooo!

sucks when u're not here to talk loudly and crack me up with ur dumb antics. sucks when the person i walk ard school campus with is someother ij girl and not u. 2more days to friday!

But the good Lord didn't make me a quitter, so tmr i'll go brave the boring talks and tiring orientation and do nothing but yawn the whole day. (:

i havent been this tired for soooo long and it seriously is shit. the massive humancrowd and semlly(heh) canteen and squatting toilets and the now-switchedon instinct to check the sign of the toilet i'm entering. too much too fast.

i still miss ij. fridayfriday. i can see ballxx and toaddd.

N, 9:13 PM



-

BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY.

but if they do, i think they do it secretly.

my sunshine friend aint replying me ): hello and welcome back to the world of,
Alarm Clocks.

N, 11:39 PM



I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

joy to the world, for the pink is gone.

my bag doesnt thrill my mom as it does me. ): i think i grew but who cares, no ones here to catch the length of pinafore anymore. bye maggiekinns.

yay i love the fergie song, although i still havent came to terms with her being together with duhamel ): what if the black eyed peas never did performed at las vegas?

throat still stinks. and finally, there's this compelling feeling to let go of you. a feeling i never wanted to acknowledge. now i do, and so bye for now. flop.

N, 4:23 PM

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